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In a moment of perfect clarity
the source of all creation is unveiled before us. A clear and concise picture of what is before us in each and every millisecond of time is essential to understanding universal truth.

Universal truth is truth without judgment. Judgement is nothing but social conditioning masquerading as fact. A fact is an opinion formed by the false self, which defends its illusionary existence through manipulation of the ego.

The ego self identifies with these opinions by agreeing or disagreeing with them. This causes chaos between the mind's opinionated storage unit and the ego. The ego's own low self esteem argues the point out of fear of losing its illusionary power over the true self. The mind that has created the problem is now trying to solve it.

Be still the beating heart of wisdom that controls the essence of creation so that I may hear the one truth of light. The light being that of the Creator. The universal source of all. Try being still, quiet, and open to the source. We must be so in every moment, at one with our source.

Without our knowledge we always are at one with the source. It must be a primary goal to become aware. Awareness of the true self is one of the keys to unlocking the door of truth. What is the true self, the natural self?

The true or natural self is the part of us that does not judge, condem, or criticize. It is the silent observer. The quiet watchful self. The manifestation of the Creator/ God. What is God ? God is silence, static. The all and the nothing.

How do we tap into that which is? Silence…Observation without condemnation. Co-creation without mind, without expectation of the outcome. Just be and do. Let go and flow with that which cannot be named.

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So bittersweet this life
I have been given. Who is responsible? Did I choose to live this life? If so why have I chosen such a difficult path. Why did I not choose something a little less difficult? What does it all mean, why should I struggle, how do I not struggle? Do I have a choice? Why do I ask so many questions?

Who has the answers? I can’t possibly experience another day like today, I’ve had enough of this life, but I don’t know how I can change this life. What magic potion can I take to change this life to another? What can I do to not experience the pain, and frustration that is sure to come? As a matter of fact I’m experiencing that pain and frustration right this very minute. So what can I do with it? What can I possibly do? The reality is that I’m out of money again and all my bills are due in five days. And I’m in it again, in the thick of the soup once again. Soon it will be no food, no money and no place to live. I can’t avoid it, it is here now, so what do I do with it this time?

I don’t have any answers. I have tried so many times and with so many different methods and I’m here now, experiencing this life. This life of frustration, of not enough money to eat and to live life. Pain is so present now, why must I keep living this same scenario, over and over again. When does this part of the picture stop? How can I possibly make a difference? What can I do to stop it? I feel as if I have no control, like I’m in the eye of a storm being flung about, not being able to get a footing, or find something to grab onto. I have tried so many different things, what can I do next? And who has the fucking answers to my questions?

Just a little break in the dark clouds is all I ask, just a small respite from the storm. I must gather my strength before I can go headlong into this thing once again. Is headlong wrong? I want to flow with it. I want to stop struggling and enjoy the ride. Then stop struggling, and enjoy the ride. Ah ha! You are on a ride, and you can’t get off until it stops. But guess what? It never stops so let go and enjoy the ride. You can’t control the outcome, or when it will stop to rest before it continues. You must learn to sit back and enjoy the ride. The only thing you have control over is your reaction to the ride. Do you become a victim of the ride? Do you ask things of the ride that it cannot give? Do you hate the ride, and curse it? Do you see it as unfair, or unjust? Are you confused by it? Does it scare you? Do you hide your face in your hands, or do you look up, feel the wind in your face, let your hands off the handrail, put them over your head, and yell out with joy?

I’m thankful for this journey; it is a terrifyingly beautiful one. What good is the picture without the thrills and chills? What good is it if we know the outcome? For there to be highs, there must be lows. And the higher the highs the lower the lows. The hero must struggle against all odds, be faced with his deepest fears, lose everything, hit rock bottom, then with renewed strength he comes back from the brink of death, and overcomes all of the odds that have been placed before him, overcomes all his fears, and reaches his goal.

Sometimes I believe that we are responsible for whatever happens in our lives, good or bad. And then sometimes I question that belief. The simplest explanation would be that we create our own obstacles. But why would we do such a foolish thing? It makes no sense at all. Why would we create difficulty in our lives, and if we did have that power why would we not create harmony? Is it against nature to create harmony? If nature is the example and if we were to put it under a microscope and examine it, would it be harmonious? And what is the definition of harmony anyway, peace, order, bliss? If any of those definitions did indeed apply then we cannot use nature as the definitive paradigm because it is not harmonious; it is chaos with order. So is this life then, chaos with order? And if so, if life is chaos with order, what is our role in it? Where do we fit in? Are we a part of this reality, and if so whose reality are we living in? Some say that we create our own realities, others say that it is pre-destined by God, or by our own past actions in previous incarnations. I don’t know what to think. To quote Forest Gump, “Maybe it’s a little of both.”

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